Vain.

Are you vain?

Since i have so much time to myself, i thought about what being vain means, and I'm just focusing on appearance, to decide whether i am vain, or not. 

According to dictionary online,

1. excessively proud of or concerned about one's own appearance, qualities, achievements, etc.; conceited: a vain dandy.

2. proceeding from or showing pride in or concern about one's appearance, qualities, etc.; resulting from or displaying vanity: He made some vain remarks about his accomplishments.

excessive: more than is necessary, normal.

conceited: excessively proud of oneself.

How do you define necessary or normal? Everyone may have their own version of necessary. If A doesn't care about A's own appearance at all, while B cares to a small extent, that may be considered more than necessary to A. If C seeks to have good achievements all the time, that may be considered more than necessary to B who only tries a little.To be normal, would mean to be average. Then, how do you judge yourself? Less than average, average or more than average? That would be the starting point to what is excessive to each person.

I am not vain because...
 

1. To make the effort to present oneself well and appropriately, it's a form of respect to others... It's not about dressing whatever you want, it's only appropriate and sensitive to think about the venue, people or things you will do for the day. If the day requires one to dress down, i will dress casually. If the day is more of a night or formal thing, i will dress to suit it. I think that is being considerate.

2. I like to have a little fun with my clothes, just like little girls playing dress up, but not dramatically. That is why... i give myself a different clothes theme every week! :P It's just like choosing a character to get into for the day, and no, i don't mean anime characters or other types of animated character! :X To dress a little differently for each day, depending on how I'm feeling that day and of course, according to the theme, requires some imagination and creativity. I do like to do a proper job from the beginning if i plan on dressing up, but of course not in a dramatic/exaggerated way. It may take some time to find the right clothes (without buying new ones) that match the idea of the character i want to be in my head, or the way i do my hair to complete the look or idea, otherwise I'd look like a weird freak. Taking the time out to having a little fun, imagination and creativity to be a little different everyday doesn't mean that I'm vain.

3. I don't check on myself all the time. I don't look in the mirror all the time or have the need to, unless i have eyeliner on and it's becoming a huge mess of black on my face, then i do need the mirror/water to clean it off. I don't fret over how my hair flies everywhere or having the need to rush to the toilet each time after that to place it properly. I don't arrange/set my clothes all the time, unless to make sure my skirt and my top is in place so that nobody sees my inner garments. I don't fish compliments, but it'd be nice if i was given one on their own accord.

4. If dressing up makes me feel better about myself, why would i wanna feel in the dumps? It's not that I'm ashamed of myself, but i guess it's good to have some expectations and push yourself to be better than just you be you, the same you every single day. It doesn't mean that I'm all wow and everyone should look at me when i do. In fact, it doesn't really matter what people think as long as i feel good about myself. Of course, appropriately. I just feel more polished, that's all.

I am vain because... 

  
1. To get the idea in my head and finding the 'right' clothes, i take so much time that i become late for my appointment. Is that a time management thing, disadvantage of the urge to fulfil the idea in my head or being vain? It is at the expense of prioritising it over other things, or people and giving no regard to it. So, i guess, that might be excessive and selfish.

2. When my hair does eventually get so messy (if I'm not trying out for a messy hair do) and looks sloppy and almost ruined (for example, a half undone braided hair), i must get it fixed ASAP! Otherwise, I'd look like a Medusa with hair flying in all directions which makes me feel unkempt and incomplete, which wasn't my intention when i step out of the house.

3. I'd get upset if my bag/clothes spoils when I'm out and i have to get a new one immediately (because i can't possible hold everything in my bag on my hand, there's alot of stuff) (i might risk being half naked if i don't get a new piece of clothing), and there's no item in the nearest shop that i can afford and fit my look for that day.  

4. Chipped off nail polish that is very obvious to the naked eye. It makes me feel like I'm untidy, and that I let myself be untidy when i don't remove it or repaint it. Especially if I were to go out on a special occasion and it chips and I can't do anything about it, I'd feel incomplete, sloppy and that my nails are being disrespectful... LOL I'll try to hide my nails so people won't notice, like clenching my fingers, wrapping my hands around the disrespectful finger nail or just not use that hand. If someone notices it, I'd kinda feel ashamed of them. :< Nail polish should be complete on all 10 fingernails!

So... I can't decide if I'm vain. 
You know how artists feel when their piece of artwork is missing something, or if you add some detail to it, it completely ruins the whole idea when in fact it's just a dot to you? It feels that way to me, it has to be complete. Excessively concerned, but not 24/7. I'd be proud if someone wants to buy my painting for millions of dollars. Same to how someone compliments me. It's like a sign of appreciating the completeness of it. To people/friends who share the same/similar sentiments to how i feel about appearances, we aren't excessive to each other. To others who don't feel the same way, it may be excessive since our starting point is different, and they wouldn't be able to understand that kind of feeling we seek to complete, or the idea of having fun with appearances. And to me from a different point as they are, will see them negatively as i too, cannot comprehend why they cannot have the same sentiments as me. And maybe vain is all about seeing someone from another point far from your own. Then again, i wonder if it's an OCD that i have.

Bye~ 

All Black.

 'All Black' for the week.

 Feeling a little old me, mixed with a 'new me mindset'. Hence, revisiting black. MEOW. No idea why i got this tank top since I'm not really a tank top person, but it's too cute to resist! Hehehe :P 

It's so difficult to sit still for hours and just study without any distractions all by myself! I just wanna do anything and everything for a little while, and all those little while add up to hours! Eventually, I  have no time to do what I have planned to do. :< I'm a procrastinator. I always tell myself to make a list, and I end up taking forever that I waste a day! D: SO much to do!!!

Oh and, I am kind of enjoying this solitude for a bit, at least until the month ends so i don't have to spend any money. And by then, I'll probably be dying to meet some people and just chit chat over coffee, drinks and preferably with good food. 

One last thing, I must remind myself to start moving around otherwise my chubby face will just get more chubby! D: 

Bye~

Just another weekend, with food.

November8

We were supposed to meet up for brunch on Saturday at Wheelers' Yard but due to them having an event, we couldn't go and we went to November8 instead. Was suppose to head elsewhere and we chance upon this cafe and decided to give it a shot! :D 

I like the way they decorated the place. Especially with the "fountain window", bicycles and guitar lying around makes it cozy, though modern, with a tinge of playfulness with the colours. Maybe, just the fountain windows. I have this thing for full length window with a lot of greenery outside. And with water flowing down the window, it's perfect! Even though i can't see anything because of the water, but the place allows a lot of sunlight to pass through. Feels very close to the outside, yet I'm inside. Not sure if I'm making sense... :X

 

Hazelnut latte is really good if you don't like bitter coffee.

 Cappuccino was slightly bland. Yet, i like how it doesn't have that sour taste at the end like most do.

 Sweet potato fries was alright. Special, but not my favourite.

Eggs Benedict! I tried one bite ha ha It's good! :D

Ordered the November8 for myself. Comes with salmon, prosciutto ham, mushroom, scrambled eggs on toast and vegetables.  The salmon were too raw and bland, same to the ham for me. I like the scrambled eggs, tastes like egg Benny! The vegetables were alright but can do with more flavouring and a tad too raw. The mushroom is the best.

The potato Rosti is probably the best they offered! I think it has more flavouring to it than the rest! Love the fried and salty taste of the Rosti!

Waffles was good too! Like how it's not soft but kinda crispy yet not hard. LOL

 #brunchdategirls! The theme was fall-winter colours. Can you tell? :D And WH and i wore the same pair of shoes unknowingly! We didn't know we had the same pair until i looked down and saw a familiar pair of flats. And initially, i thought those were my feet. HA HA We looked like a caterpillar... Green and the 2 pairs of legs, and the legs keep moving at different speed, with the bright blue flats. LOL

WHEE! Looking forward to TAIWAN with them! Booked our 2 way tickets for only $246! WHOOP! Hope we get to catch a masterclass there! The good thing about going overseas with dance friends is that we can dance together! :D Also, since they like eating, i can eat a lot! I foresee that I'm going to be super chubby after that trip! D:

 Here's my outfit! The top was a present from Gerry! But, it's a little loose on me and i felt like my top is going to slip off me any moment the whole day. :<

Caught 'Lone survivor' the movie that same day with ♥ and i had no idea it was some kinda army related movie. I only know that the reviews were pretty good. So, we decided to watch it!

Throughout the whole movie, there wasn't a moment (except for the very beginning before the mission) that i wasn't feeling nervous or grossed out! I think my face was probably pretty scrunched up most of the time! The way they had to fight for their lives even after getting shot a few times... so sad! :< The wounds were gross! And the way they fell off the cliff and roll and hit the rocks or whatever hard thing, was well portrayed that they probably broke something and i can almost feel their pain through the screen! Also, how they eventually died after fighting so much... so sad! :< Good visuals and good layout for the plot, not draggy and really full of action! 

Really a good movie that I'm so grossed out about it. Even after the movie, when ♥ suddenly stopped walking and said, "wait, my toe hurts...", the scene that immediately pops up to my head is when one of the soldiers got shot in his foot, and i almost thought that ♥ got shot too and i can almost feel the pain? Totally mind fucked! Couldn't stop thinking about how scary it is for the soldiers to be sent to Afghanistan for the war. And all those soldiers who died are SO young! Some are newlyweds, or 'new parents' and they have yet to experience their lives with their family! I feel sad for the soldier, and also his wife, his parents and kids. :< Wars shouldn't exist. But, they do. :<

On a side note, I've got new clothes! Bought myself the skirts that I've been wanting to buy for awhile and they fit! :D Can't wait to wear them! Hehehehe :P 

Oh, and while i was trying to deposit my money, the machine ate it up. Bleh. What do i do?! Hope they get me my money back! D:

And... Prelims starts tomorrow but here I am, still chilling and shopping just now. D: I'm a dead piece of meat! DOOMED! Doom i say! D: D: D:

BOO :< BYE~

Fingers' post Valentine's!

 Sushi Express

Post Valentine's date with the fingers! :D anddd... YAY! PRESENTS! Insect got us face soap! And Brownie took the soaps that has names containing mud, or black something! Because she doesn't need any whitening! LOL And Brownie got us sweet treat packets. HM made cereal pops for us! I have a magical wand now. And Sleeve made chocolate for us which is currently in her house's refrigerator. -.- Hope i get to it before it rots!

We ate that many plates of sushi and what nots. Okay, i think i ate 3-4 plates of creampuffs because they're so good! The kind of puff with the kind of cream that i like in it! Hehehe! It's kinda dumb but i love it so much! :D They didn't really have a large variety of sushi but the salmon sashimi was good enough. And all the plates of sushi are $1.50 each so i guess we ate like tomorrow. Hahaha! 

Group shot before brownie had to go and we went to chill after. In our fingers formation! :P

Here's me and insect! Because we're sitting on the same side...

And yes, i am eating sushi again with Sleeve although not sushi buffet. The next time we see each other we might be eating sushi buffet again. Lol. Sushi for the win! 

Also, the cup of coffee made me lay awake all the way till close to 4am. I cannot drink coffee at night! Now I'm trying to get my body clock back to normal. No naps for me until i feel tired enough to sleep at night! T.T

Kay bye~

My Valentine's day

Valentine's

When i was preparing to make the cupcakes... It turns out alright i suppose? Since nobody said that it was horrible! YAY! :D

 Got my first gift, a tart from ♥! It's reaaaaally rich and chocolatey! :D

CMPB

Dinner at CMPB! I've been wanting to go there for awhile now and we finally got seats! Everywhere is fully booked! But lucky for us, someone gave up theirs and we got ours! :D

Got ourselves spam fries, a ribeye with mash for him and wagyu steak with foie gras burger with truffle fries for me. Can't remember the name of the chocolate cake and mint ice cream we got for dessert but it wasn't that good. Ambiance was really good. They had the table set up with a heart shaped candle and a rose. So sweet. Also, the live band helps. :)

 My outfit for the night. Dressed in black but Love's not dead. :P

 I had a good time. :D Happy Valentine's with my Valentine! 

 ♥♥♥

Post Valentine's
Dinner at Ichiban with my parents and ♥! Yummy! We didn't exactly order a lot but somehow we ended up really full. 

My outfit for a chill Saturday out with ♥! :D

And I'm in love with the movie "That awkward moment". It had the right amount of jokes and serious romance stuff in there. Basically it's a right fit of romance comedy for me. Or maybe. it's just apt and appropriate for me in this page of my life. And what's more, there's zac in it! SWOONS! Heehee! Go watch it!

 with ♥, bye~

The last of my Chinese new year days.

Sixth Day
 Didn't do much today... went for a run, followed by having a steamboat at cousin's place with our friends! Yummy yummy in my tummy! Really love Chinese new year! There's so much food! And it all tastes SO good! I feel so pampered! :D

 And a pic with the little birthday girl all dolled up!

Eighth Day
 Drinks at Park with the Fattyboms! Too hungry and kitchen was closed already. So, I bought myself a Pau and Fan Choy. Not very nice though, but i guess it can fill my tummy. Happy people for that night! No idea why we were in a photo taking frenzy that night. Hahaha

 And yes, look how happy we all are. I have no idea why. LOL But... just say cheese! :D

Tenth Day

Woke up early for a mini post Chingay party! Yay~ FOOD! My favourite was the thousand island pork. Lol. And of course, we had to 'Lou hei'!

 That was the fourth consecutive day i was seeing them. Chinese new year we had a good break from each other, and i was a little not used to it, but i guess we all needed it. :X

Headed to aunt's place to 'Bai nian'! With my super tall, little cousin! He's SO tall! And he got a little taller this year too! Boohoo~ I also wanna grow taller!

After, Fattyboms gathered for a super big and sumptuous meal provided by Boo. Really had a lot of food! Though we stink after, but hell, it was good. And very very sinful!

 And... one last stop at aunt's place for dinner! Can you imagine the amount of food i ate that day?! All i did was eat, all day! But, it was really good. Last weekend for Chinese new year already. :< Holidays are over!

Twelfth DayDinner at Saveur with ShaRockGers. Lol. I seem to have a nickname for each of my group of friends i realised. 

Got ourselves a pasta each and shared the duck confit and beef bourguignon. The meat is SO tender! It has replaced the duck confit on my favourites list.

 Desserts at Sun with Moon. Here's the 'special' original tofu cheese cake caged up. It's sweet and really silky like tofu. Can't really taste the tofu but not that tofu has any taste anyway. The crust is sweet too! Yummy! It looks small, but it isn't really.

Caramel pudding tart that is 'special' too. I can't taste the caramel at all, then i realised that the caramel sauce is the decoration on the plate. -.- It tastes a little bland compared to the tofu cheese cake but the tart is pretty much the same i think. Tastes like baby crackers. I didn't think the fruits go well with the pudding, doesn't really add any pop of taste to it. 

Didn't take any group photos. :( But we had a good time laughing away as usual. Had a lot of hearing problems today that turned into a lot of jokes. Hahaha. Listening to all their working woes and culture change that scares me! I'm not looking forward to working already. From the way that they described the people that i will meet, they all sound pretty weird and definitely not so friendly. :/ Now I'm convinced that the people you meet when you get older, gets weirder and meaner. Boohoo~ So... keep your friends close when you eventually meet those that you can really click with! Glad i kept these girls! :D
 
Thirteenth Day
Accompanied Dad to the hospital for his surgery. Nothing serious and sudden. Dad didn't want to trouble me but i wanted to accompany him. :/ And... it was difficult to start mugging after.

Steamboat on a Wednesday because class is cancelled! But I'm still seeing these people. I miss class already actually. Can't wait to get back to work and train ourselves! But before that, we're going to eat like crazy!

Happy birthday to JK! :D One year older but still as cute! Hahaha. Her request was red velvet white chocolate cake.

That's the end of this season of food.
Also, I've won $1 for the whole of CNY. Time to get myself one vanilla ice cream cone.
Bye~