2014 Resolutions

Resolutions

To be punctual.

(It's on my list every year... I try my best to be but somehow it doesn't work out. I did improve but there's more to go. It's easy for people who can mange this well, but for someone like me, it's very difficult. It's almost like an addiction and trying to get out of it is very very tiring and expensive.)

To get back to dancing as often as I can.

(For the first time last year, i experienced the joy and pain of dancing almost everyday and sometime twice a day. A short lived experience of what it'd be like to be professional but I'm far from that. And for awhile, it did suck because all i wanted was to sit down and have a proper meal which i couldn't on most days. But at the end of it, i do miss those days. Even when it got so mentally and physically draining whereby i crave for some social interaction to push myself further or when i woke up day after day with body aches and still have to pull myself outta bed and dance some more. The best part, was that i don't have to workout as i was losing my fats and flabs. I think i miss that intensity, and because of that, i know i can do it. I'm capable of it but I'm not pushing myself. I saw how i improved in such a short span of time. And i want myself to be so much more.)

To think of one's situation before judging their character.

(Many a times, i tend to be too quick to judge a person based on their character than what they are going through. If i just slow down and look at the big picture, maybe i would've noticed that he/she might be having a hard time and i could've helped them instead of thinking about myself.)

To listen and not interrupt.

(I may have picked up a really bad habit of interrupting which I've noticed recently. It's very bad because it just shows how selfish I've become. To give others a chance to speak and hear them out before saying anything, and also to think through carefully of what i want to say before saying it out.)

To help out around the house without waiting.

(I don't think I'm bad at household chores, but it's just that i don't it. I guess it's time i start to take more initiative and start helping out. I've been depending on my parents for too long because they will always be willing to help me. And this makes me feel lazy to get started. It's not that i don't know how to do, i do it when my parents aren't around but the moment they get back, i slack off. Or when i leave some cleaning that needs to be done for days and because my parents can't stand the mess while i idle away, they get it done for me. I feel really bad because their health hasn't been the best recently and they still have to do so much. Gotta make it a habit from now on.)

To learn how to cook 5 dishes.

(Since I'm such a big eater and i love to eat proper food, i should learn how to cook properly. And it only makes sense since I've got a recipe book now. I will learn to cook food that i love to eat so i can make them for myself first. And after that, i can edit the dishes and make them for people i love.)

To bake 5 different cupcake flavours.

Since I've got a cupcake maker, i shouldn't let it go to waste. And I've been thinking of so many weird flavors for my friends to make, i should start on my own because they think it's too weird. LOL And if it's successful, i can sell them! YAY~

To save at least $3000/stop taking allowance

(To you, $3000 might be very little, but to me, it's a lot of money. I don't have any job, i have school, family, dance, boyfriend and friends. And i do need to eat and sleep. Of course, if i wanted to save, I'd have to sacrifice any one of the above and that would mean no social life for me since i wouldn't have enough time. But, since I'm going to graduate this year, i will have the time to start working. Not sure if I'm going to take up a full time proper job or just a job that i kinda like and would like to explore for that period of time while dancing more and dreaming about my future, but a job will definitely enable me to save. Or if not, stop taking allowance from my parents. This should be the toughest resolution of all. I don't spend much on shopping but most of it goes to food and transport. Hence, being punctual will help me to save money from taking cabs which i can then use the money to save. But, if i want to dance more, that would mean more spending on dance classes. SIGHS!)

To put myself as top priority and be firm in my decisions

(I may have given myself quite some excuses to slack and ended up not succeeding or getting what i wanted for myself. This year, i must put myself on top of my list and remind myself of what I've set out to achieve. I'm usually quite indecisive and because i cave in too easily even though i know the answer is no, it has resulted in consequences which i wish i didn't have to face. I have to learn to say no and not give in when i know what's important/what i have to do and not feel guilty about it. I have to know when enough is enough. And tell myself that I'm not a superhero no matter how hard i try to make it happen, humans have their limits. To know when to stop adding stuff to my already full plate. This is of medium difficulty because i know how i cave in easily to temptations/giving up/escaping.)

To keep trying

The world is endless, there's so much that i don't know and haven't seen. Take a holiday if i have to... Learn something new... A new skill, a new sport, a new genre of dance, a new language etc... Hang out at somewhere new... where it seems different, refreshing, inspiring and maybe stir up some good emotions. Meet different kind of people even if they intimidate me... there's always people that can add new perspectives to my life with their life experiences and teach me a new attitude, a new place to go, new food to try, new activities to challenge myself, or just someone totally like me to talk about everything that we like and enjoy those activities together... Eat something different... it might be a new dish, a different perspective on the usual dishes that i enjoy, new flavors, or just some food that i have yet to try... Enjoy the scenery... the greenery, the architecture, the birds and insects, clouds, sun, stars and all before they disappear with time... Watch people walk by... be impressed by their style, don't be impressed by their style, observing couples quibbling or not, friends laughing together or not, working people being bored or not and the so many different expressions on their faces or the actions and movements they make...Take a walk every now and then and breathe in the fresh air... 

Life's good like that. I should savour every moment of it.

Bye~